sunflowers and rainbows

2011-06-14T02:09:00.000-07:00

2011-06-13T09:55:00.000-07:00

I've realised that it's not easy for me to maintain a blog. Perhaps, it's because I'm a private person. Perhaps, it's because I've lost the zest for writing. Admittedly, I've find it increasingly difficult to articulate my thoughts, maybe because I'm bogged down with more issues than before with the passing of time. Or perhaps, I'm just lazy.

University life, something that I have never envisioned about before. Perhaps this resulted in me falling even harder. I have encountered numerous problems that stirred my mind and heart. Grades, relationships, disputes, embarrassment, fear.

I was thrown into a completely different environment where I had to learn to stand on my own two feet. There was little company, as friends mostly came and go, although thankfully, I've met a few close friends. However, many a times, I had to face the challenge of being alone, something that I was always fearful of since young. I loathe loneliness, rather I adore the company of many. A mere walk in the school campus alone proved difficult, what's more having lunch alone. Yet, this is reality. I knew that it was time for me to grow up.

I'm on the road to maturity, that I'm sure of.

2011-04-29T08:29:00.000-07:00

2010-11-02T21:35:00.000-07:00

tired of school ttm! give me strength please!!

2010-06-29T11:47:00.000-07:00

Even though England lost to Germany in the World Cup match on Sunday, I thought Frank Lampard played well on the pitch and i still like him(:

2010-06-21T00:36:00.000-07:00

PRETTY RIGHT??

i wanna try my hands on baking such deliciously gorgeous cupcakes!! for now, i'll just stick to the virtual ones on facebook.

July is gonna be a busy month, with two camps and many down to school trips lined up. ahhh. i dun like this):

my student is slowly improving academically. i'm really heartened to see her growth. i think tutoring is not all about the easy money dat one can get, but also the sense of satisfaction dat one can reap from seeing his/her students grow academically. and i'm also currently tutoring my twin cousins. hope they will reap aplenty from my teachings(:

thankful thankful thankful.

2010-06-17T21:25:00.000-07:00

*** (inserts school here) seriously sucks.

2010-06-16T23:18:00.000-07:00

i received a call from my ex-colleague a few days ago. surprise surprise. we spoke for a longg time. miss her loads. and i miss auntie xiuyu who would never fail to stuff me with the food she had prepared for the day, and auntie jenny who i always gossiped with and complained to.

the primary 1 student dat i'm currently tutoring is so innocent and cute. she shares with me alot about her secrets. just today, she insisted dat i accept the sweets dat she gave me. she's sweet. but i've yet to receive my pay. pisses me off sometimes. my jc1 student gives me a headache sometimes. the questions he asked would leave me stumped. omgg. i dread tutoring him sometimes. headache and perspiration dripping LOL!

i'm starting to dislike SMU. i dislike the way they do things, say the activation of the account for example. ahhh, my future school leh. how can??

i miss caedmon & ashton!

2010-06-15T18:13:00.000-07:00

i pretty much enjoy slacking at home and had been doing so for the past 6 months, hence i'm starting to worry about university life; studies, friends, lack of sleep (LOL) and everything else. ahhh, so scary can! school's starting on 16 August. so fast!!!

i like my life without work, but i'm definitely missing my little ones. i went back to the centre last tuesday and the kids were all so welcoming. loves. many pictures were snapped, and phone numbers exchanged. andd caedmon especially is such a sweetheart. awww.. my simple gestures made him grinned widely and he got so excited and happy. he'll grow up to be a good-looking guy, i'm sure of dat. my little sunshine(s), love them ttm! pictures up next time.

GREAT FOOD!

BBQ chicken with aiyan and florence(:

GREAT FUN!

GREAT COMPANY!

upcoming events:

- picnic at marina barrage with cailing, fiona, ting and daphne.

- K with cailing, fiona, daphne and kehua.

- outing with irene, joanna, vidhu and yihui.

- outing with vincent, daryl and ym.

- dinner dates with alycia and dawnie.

and many many more to come i hope:D

i've been seriously learning how to cook. i've cooked macaroni, deep-fried dishes, stir-fried dishes, and i made dumplings(((: i wanna bake muffins, pies and cakes next!!

2010-05-21T22:56:00.000-07:00

i'm so worried. i havent gotten news about my scholarship application whilst others are starting to get scholarship offers. my hopes are diminishing day by day. NTU/SMU??

31 May is arriving. i'm so gonna miss my little darlings.

things are just not going right. give me a little sunshine, at least i'll feel better.

upcoming outings, sleepovers and overseas trips! make me smile loves.

2010-05-08T04:16:00.001-07:00

PRETTY(:

the weather these days is HOT HOT HOT!

i went to NTU hostel today. i'm really not getting used to the idea of living in a hostel. especially if there are residential cats around like wad my brother says. scared!!

i passed by my previous flat on the way to NTU, and was overwhelmed with emotions. i can still remember my primary school days vividly. waking up early in the mornings, then proceeding down to wait for uncle peh's bus (my school bus), always sitting beside my senior, amelia who is ever so caring towards me, having to endure the coldness of the mornings.. that was when i was only in primary 2. i also remembered my grandparents taking care of me when i was in primary 1. at that time, my parents would send my brother and i to my grandparent's place which was around that location before they went to work. every afternoon, my grandfather would promptly bring my brother and i down to wait for our school bus. whenever we passed by the neighbour who kept many cats as pets, my grandfather, knowing that i was terribly afraid of cats would never fail to protect me from them. he would also buy candies and chocolates for the two of us before our school bus came. he's a really great grandpa and i missed him dearly.

kinship is ever so dear.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MUMMY!

MY LITTLE BUNDLES OF JOY

2010-05-07T08:40:00.000-07:00

MY LITTLE BUNDLES OF JOY:D

MY HANDSOME BOY AND MY FAVOURITE KID- ASHTON LEE

A VERY ADORABLE BOY- CAEDMON BOH

TEH YOUJIE

JONAS WU

LEE XIANGFENG

TEO TIMON

MY CUTIE- SHEENA CHAN

A VERY SWEET GIRL- ZHANG HUIYI

in case you all may not noe,i'm a student care teacher!i'm really enjoying my job as the kids are really sweet and adorable.they are like my sunshine for everyday.but i'll be quitting at the end of may,so all my lovelies,feel free to ask me out because i'll be really free from june onwards!

i wanna do so many many many things that i havent got time to do!

1) sing K

2) timbre

3) kite-flying

4) flyer

5) universal studios

6) zoo

7) baking

8) SHOPPING

so dear friends,please ask me out soon!

oh.and smu,please send me your acceptance letter soon alright?at least this would make me feel dat i didnt perform as bad as i thought during the interview.

and i really hope all goes well for my ntu scholarship interview next week!

goodbyes

2010-03-27T10:36:00.000-07:00

sha's leaving, alicia's leaving.

and my cutie sheena chan jiayi is also leaving.

sadness X1569824873

I wanna see a rainbow

2010-01-26T02:59:00.000-08:00

AMELIN LOVES THEM...

i like this photo as my zits aren't too obvious.lol.

newly bought shades at $8.90 only.

NATURALLY CUTE ALRIGHT!

and many many many more!!

primary school friends, 4A, PAE 08S201, 08S103, friends of friends, friends made during church sessions with dawnie and piano classes etc etc. and my adorable little friends.

THEY MAKE AMELIN'S EVERY DAY=D

will upload the photos from my camera.that is when i find my USB cable and figure out how to go abt doing it.

anyways, i did a quiz. fairly accurate except for the seriousness of your love part. LOL. go try(:

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

it's a really small world afterall.

2010-01-20T06:02:00.000-08:00

GAO YI XIANG =DDD

MEGA HOT!!!!!!!

he's my friend's friend's cousin. INTRO INTRO!!

2010-01-19T02:57:00.000-08:00

UPDATES!!!!!!

get-together and TIMBRE with cailing, fiona and kehua.

K plus countdown with the usuals from 103.

singtel promoter job which lasted merely for 3 days.

job interviews with cailing, shawn pok, vincent and rachel but received no response though):

stayover at dawnie's place with her adorable cousins. love((((((:

training sessions with cailing and alwina.

outing with 103 last saturday.

as you can see, jobless amelin finds it terribly difficult to spend her days.

BUT the following days should be fun!!!

job interview tmr where the location is near my house. and it's a student care job so i'll get to interact with loads of kids!!!

outing with irene, shawn and shiwee on thurs at far east for a shopping spree.

ANDDDD i've volunteered to lead my sis's class for their excursion on friday. dat means i'm going back to my primary school and interact with the kids!!!and i think my family will be going for the Carlsberg show after dat. hopefully i'll get to meet dai yang tian. it would be better if jeanette aw was there though.

hopefully i'll recover before thurs outing. i hope my plan doesn't fail, although it seems to every time i plan an outing. *crossed fingers* and throat please heal so i get to sing K with cailing etc. i feel so bad having to postpone the K outing. yes, i really cannot get enough of K.

i'm missing alot of people lately. my coach, jaime especially. i miss her guidance throughout my secondary school years. she's everything dat i'm not. so wise, mature etc. faith, cindy and puaysuan too! dunno how they're getting on. i wanna go out with them soon!!! aiyan and florence too. Ms Chow, if you're reading this, you havent replied my sms. wanna go out together??

08S103, I LOVE YOU TO BITS. these people were mostly the ones with me throughout my 2 years in mj. i'm glad dat everyone of us have grown so close. it almost feel as if we're a family given how bonded we are or at least how bonded the usuals are. i'm glad for everything. thank you.

hope everything goes well in 2010 esp my piano grades. I MUST AT LEAST PASS MY PIANO PRACTICAL EXAMINATION. dats my new year resolution(:

2009-12-21T01:19:00.000-08:00

hello people. it's been a long long time since i blogged. life has been pretty mundane after the crazy prom preparations. anyways, here's a peek into wad i've been doing after As(:

prom

dinner with irene, shawn and shiwee

dinner with jason

shopping spree with dawnie

eating spree with vincent, daryl and ym

steamboat and impromptu stayover at mak's place

outing with 08S103 today, the usuals though. oh. and i met a small little boy boy today who's mega cute!! he was sitting behind me during the movie and when i stretched my arms after the movie, he patted my arms. i turned around and smiled at him and when i bade goodbye to him, he was so shy. hahaha. when i walked down the steps towards the exit, he kept looking at me=D i kept telling irene about it. lol. kids are just so cute!!

other than that, i've been staying at home watching dramas, reading storybooks and sleeping. i'm watching two taiwanese dramas currently that is hi my sweetheart and why why love though the latter's a pretty old show. and i'm onto my 5th storybook alr (memoirs of a geisha) and i'm going on to read my brother's book the time traveler's wife after this. i seriously think reading is addictive(: and i sleep like a pig everyday with 14+ hours of sleep. hahaha. i think i'm becoming increasingly lazy. it's like i would only click the mouse when using the computer cause i'll be lazy to type. that somehow explains why my blog is always dead. LOL.

I WANNA GET A JOB SOON!! i've been sending resumes to companies these past two days and only one replied which i had to reject because the location is too far))): I NEED MONEY!!

christmas is coming and i'm so happy because there'll be lots and lots of presents. muahahaha. i'm greedy. and this week is outings and outings and more outings. never felt so busy for a long time.

i wanna go prawning or ice-skating or K(((:

2009-07-24T02:00:00.000-07:00

STOP BEING SUCH A BITCH ALRIGHT! YOUR ATTITUDE JUST IRKS ME. SERIOUSLY, WAD'S THE BIG DEAL? I WOULD ASSUME FULL RESPONSIBILITY AND I DO NOT NEED YOUR HELP OK LADY.

STOP PUTTING ON A FACADE WITH YOUR GOODY-GOODY TALK. YOU APPEAR TO CARE SO MUCH ABOUT US BY SYMPATHISING WITH OUR PREDICAMENT BUT ACTUALLY YOU DON'T. OR ELSE WHY WOULD YOU BE PISSING SO MANY OF US OFF WITH YOUR BITCHINESS?

AND STOP WHINING AT SUCH AN AGE. YOU ARE GIVING ME THE IMPRESSION THAT YOU'RE INCOMPETENT AND USELESS. AND I THINK THAT'S PRETTY MUCH TRUE.

anyways, i just returned home from piano class and sth intrigued me very much. you see, i was crossing the road and i happened to cross path with a rather pretty girl (well of course, not as pretty as me.LOL) but my impression of her changed drastically when i spotted a cigarette between her fingers. i don't know but i think it somehow spoils the image that a person has of you if you're spotted smoking. i guess it's a matter of opinion.

i think life's miserable these days. i cant wait for A lvls to end. I'M TIRED!!!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JIELING

HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY JORVEN

(see, i'm so nice to wish him even though his awfully mean to me all the time) i want a change of seat lest he pollutes my mind any further!!! and stop commenting on my shoes lah. i wear what i want ok.

i grew 1cm and lost 2kg!!! muahahaha.

on a lighter note, go listen to taylor swift's 'love story' and 'teardrops on my guitar'. NICEEEE((:

MASTERPLAN with vidu. ALL THE WAY!!!

2009-07-12T14:07:00.000-07:00

midyrs are officially over and i guessed it was quite traumatising for many. i remembered that i literally broke down and cried after math paper 1. hahaha. and i wanted to cry when studying for math paper 2 during the break between econs and math paper 2. anyways, i received news dat i got into band 2 for math. i think it had affected me quite terribly and i whined and complained to cailing and aiyan. lol. thanks girls for bearing with me(:

anyways, after exams were movie with classmates, dinner with bestie dawnie on friday and K plus shopping with bestie cailing yesterday.

transformers was quite an average movie, but MEGAN FOX IS HOT HOT HOT!!!

i'm still waiting for cailing to email me the photos from yesterday. i didnt allowed her to tag me on facebook since most of the photos were damn unglam. solo outing with her was fun. it has been like almost half a yr since we last went out): we gossiped alot and i truly sympathise with her for having so many bitches in her class. and we got into a discussion whether it was good to have your best friend be your boyfriend. personally, i dun think dat will be good. lol. dat girl got me into quite a shock when she told me abt her crush. *secret*

anyways, i missed these little kids from TFC and meridian primary.

addy! my cute little bf. lol. he's very sweet and adorable. hahaha.

changxuan! i was reading through my smses and i realised he sent sth very funny.

cx: ok. i'm going to sleep. bye. goodnight(: ugly girl.

when i didnt reply him, he sent another sms saying he was sorry and he was just joking.

so innocent. and i missed crapping with him on the phone, talking abt anything under the sky.

daryl. he's a terror. and i remembered how we used to bicker with each other and throw the basketball and waterballoon at each other. lol.

nicholas! he's a shy and softspoken guy. looks very angmoh btw. and i think he'll grow up one day to become a very good looking guy. teehee.

ryan. he'll keep commenting about my ___ and i'll tease him about florence and him. he would ask me lots of things about florence also. LOL.

i think i wanna become a kindergarden teacher or a primary sch teacher. hahaha.

anyways, i think it's damn fun to look at guys' hp. it all started when i fiddled with jiaang's hp, then jorven's and mak's one sch day. there's a huge difference between the contents in a guy and girl's phone. for e.g. in a guy's phone, there are very few photos whereas in a girl's phone, there are like hundreds and thousands of photos. lol.

anyways, i chanced upon a meridian's blog about two days ago and he was like saying how there were only four months left before they would graduate and would no longer be able to act like a child and be a student etc. but i want A levels to end like soon. i kinda wished that the midyrs were the A levels exams and soonsiang said i was crazy. lol.

I WANNA GET A BF SOON TO PAY FOR ALL MY EXPENSES!!! HAHAHA. I'M MEAN!

2009-05-12T19:15:00.000-07:00

i wanna go kite-flying... with you(:

2009-04-25T00:50:00.000-07:00

"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... it's learning to dance in the rain."

FOCUS AND FINISH STRONG

thanks dawnie for your love and words of encouragement. thanks ym too for your sweet sweet smses. and thanks alycia for your company. you girls are amazing. and i'll stay strong and positive for yall.

i wanna go back to the good old days when i had time for piano. my playing sucks now and i'm sad.

anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY IRENE TAN, although it's kinda late. hope you had a fabulous birthday. be strong girl. love you.

2009-04-22T08:44:00.000-07:00

i'm excited abt PE tmr. wahahaha. i wanna train(: and i ran 6 rounds on monday and i'm proud of myself because for once, i didnt cheat. hahaha. amelin loves PE after all it's her favourite subject rite?

i dun wanna lose them

2009-03-28T01:41:00.000-07:00

these two days had been chaotic and emotionally-draining.

was heading home after school on thurs. as usual, i was deep in my thoughts and oblivious to the surroundings. it was after i turned back that i realised she was tearing. i felt like such a loser as i could only watch her cry without knowing what to do. i was glad that she had her friend with her who was able to at least console and comfort her unlike me. when her other friends asked me what had happened, i couldnt give them a reply. i felt lousy. she had been walking with me throughout the entire journey, but i couldnt sense anything wrong. i'm sorry for being such a lousy friend.

i'm sorry for being such a meanie, so much so that my friends are starting to feel that i've been taking them for granted.
i'm sorry for being such an insensitive person, always hurting and offending others.
i'm sorry for upsetting my friends with my nonchalance and temper.
i'm sorry for upsetting my family with my attitude and behaviour.

but the fact is, i truly love and cherish every one of you even though i may appear indifferent, may not say 'hi' when we bump into each other, may not remember birthdays or reply to smses.

i love each and every one of you, be it acquaintances, classmates, friends or BFFs megaloads and i dun wanna lose any of you.

2009-03-15T08:28:00.000-07:00

tomorrow's monday, and i'm happy not because of GP examination though, but because you'll be back in school(((:

my dad has been very sweet these days. he brought me to SMU for my piano theory examination on saturday, took care of me since yesterday when i fell ill, and went to converse to exchanged my shoes for another pair which costs 20 dollars more. love him very much.

i dun mind, even if it means having to love you silently.

2009-02-20T06:30:00.000-08:00

FACADE

appearing friendly and nice on the outside, but is the exact opposite in the inside. hypocrites. people are getting to be unreal these days. it's really difficult to tell those who are sincere and those who are not. i'm starting to doubt my circle of friends.

i thought i could count on you, but you gave me the impression that you were unwilling and reluctant to help. if you had the heart to help, you wouldnt think of "forgetting". i thought you were a true friend but it looks like it was a wrong decision to place my trust on you.

i'm naive.. i'm gullible..

2009-02-13T06:48:00.000-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

many thanks to those who wished me and gave me gifts. love all of you. i'm very sorry for not preparing any gifts for you ppl, but i truly appreciate all of your little acts and gifts and love towards me. thanks a million. you guys rock.

i especially love the gifts and notes from joanna, vidu, vincent, daryl, dawn and ym cause they complimented me for being pretty(: and the gifts from joanna, hebei, florence, dawn and ym were handmade and unique(: thanks girls.

daddy's birthday is today and mummy's tmr. i spent about 100 plus on their gifts. shoes for mummy and belt for daddy and handmade cards too. i love them loads. happy birthday to my beloved dad and mum. may both of you be blessed with good health and happiness.

i'll be good to my mortal and shower him with gifts the next few days. but i still think it's quite ridiculous to continue the 'angel and mortal' game after valentine's day, and having to be the angel of a j1 student. i dun even noe how Yee Kan Cong looks like. sounds like my pae classmate though. single out to me if any of you happen to noe him ok?

anyways, enjoy your valentine's day ppl.

2008-12-05T22:50:00.000-08:00

TFC was a blast. the kids are damn adorable. i love them all(:

Day 1

daryl and us. this guy called me a monster. argh!

Day 2

daryl no. 2 and addy.

daryl (in white) hiding from me. i think donovan (in black) is kinda cute.

kungfu panda!

he wrote 'cute boy' cause i said he was cute. lol.

at sentosa with group 8(: hyperactive kids but i love them still.

Day 3

chang xuan!!!

atiqah.the sweet-looking girl in my group.

nadya, the naughty girl who always gang up with daryl to bully me.

daryl no. 3 from group 8. he's a nice kid.

chang xuan's camera shy. there was another malay kid who took our photograph but he didnt have bluetooth. wth. and dat was a perfect shot lah.

chang xuan wrote this for me.

and this for joanna.
he spelt 'bitch' as 'beach' and 'bastard' as 'busted'. lol.

chang xuan's reflection sheet.

jieqi.

the brothers.

peng siong and authur from group 8.

successful attempt at taking his photo. this guy kept throwing water balloons and shooting rubberbands at me. and joanna still likes him. stupid daryl chua.

'thank you' card for me. by my lovely group 1 members. i'll try to get the group photo soon.

meridians:D

group 1 won one segment. superb group with superb leaders like myself. muahaha. and leading group 8 for sentosa amazing race wasnt that bad too, although they were too active and noisy.
i love these kids(:

2008-11-24T22:55:00.000-08:00

i dun wanna travel all the way to serangoon tmr. it's like at the other end of singapore. i think i'll most probably get lost on my way there. why choose such far location?? pray for me ppl):

i realised i misplaced my whole 400+ mcq physics package. see, such things happen when you really dislike the subject. and i dun think i will have time to complete my tutorials seeing the numerous stuff that are lined up the next few weeks.

1) OSVAP attachment which requires me to go down to outram every other day.
2) some graduation ceremony activity at bedok.
3) children's camp somewhere at redhill.
4) dot project with aiyan and florence.
5) slc project.

and i still have other appointments with friends.
1) with girlfriends this sunday.
2) tsc ppl after 10 dec.
3) with vincent and gang.
4) with dawn.
5) with kehua and gang after kehua's back.
6) bbq at cailing's house.
7) christmas party with 08S103? hebei's organising(: i've already missed the class chalet and i hope that this activity can take place? and i noe you ppl miss me too. so hebei, you shld noe wad to do alr rite?

gone shopping alr, and i bought two pairs of shoes and several accessories. and i still wanna shop for clothes and bags. if only i qualified for the edusave merit bursary award. i need money!!

i noe you're avoiding me, but i'm really not angry alr. maybe it wasnt your fault in the first place just that i wasnt particularly in a good mood. maybe i went too far but i hope you dun take it to heart. afterall, you shld noe dat i'm the straightforward kind that will speak my mind. so, i hope dat you're okay(:

2008-11-13T22:20:00.000-08:00

ok.the more i think of it the more i get damn bloody irritated.

firstly, i think you're a real busybody. it's apparent that we dun want you to know anything from our conversations but you're so thick-skinned such that you actually butt into our every conversation. it's so annoying don't you realise? would it matter to be oblivious to us? and i totally loathe the way you poke your nose into my every affair, asking me about every single thing that i do. wth, who do you think you are?

secondly, i cant stand the way you criticise ppl every now and then. do you think you are so damn perfect? i'm pointing out your flaws now ok. you criticise ppl's outward appearances and their actions even though you dun even noe them in the first place. like, "the girl very fat leh" and "the boy looks very weird". listen up, you have no right to judge them. not even the slightest bit. i think you're worse than them. at least your character is.

thirdly, would it hurt to stop talking? it's like i'm not in my finest mood and here you go yakking away and asking me repeated questions. i'm pissed if you noticed and i was ignoring you also. i feel like just tearing your mouth apart.

and pls, give yourself such a nice nickname and giving me such an ugly one? i think you're more suited for the latter.

and dun tell repetitive jokes ok? it's not even the slightest bit funny. i wonder why the others are entertained by them. well, i'm certainly not.

and stop peeping at other's marks. you were badmouthing another person who did it and now you're the one doing. hypocrite.

i dun care if this post should sour out friendship. but i think it's time to reflect on what you have done. after all, i've been enduring this for the past one year. i hope you noe who you are.

2008-11-06T15:08:00.000-08:00

OP was officially over on tuesday. think i did okay except for the occassional fumbling and i missing out an entire paragraph of my script without realising until shila and hebei told me after the presentation. hope the teacher doesnt noticed.

bowling with 08S103 after that at Ehub. sad to say, i got the lowest out of the ten ppl who bowled): went whitesands with joanna, irene and hebei. gossip and bitched alot. then met up with the others who had just ended their OP. watched max payne which was a terribly boring movie. i was day-dreaming half the time. maybe because i was too traumatised by the earlier conversation with the other three. seriously, i didnt expected it partly because i didnt have a good impression of him since PAE. dun worry, my lips are sealed. dinner at century square with eight other ppl. i'm the spokeswoman for soonsiang's "company" lah. haha. appearance do matter.

PW is coming to an end and i'm looking forward to it(:

2008-11-02T05:36:00.000-08:00

OP is nearing and i'm super scared. i cant seem to project my voice and i cant seem to smile too. Omg. this is bad. i noe i'm fierce but it's the smile that they want. wad to do. argh. and i cut my fringe for OP. i look retarded. it's like damn short. i think the hairdresser was in a foul mood and she vent her anger on my hair lah. ugly like dunno wad can))):

got through the OSVAP attachment thing. it's like from 17 nov to 26 dec. still have to plan for cca stuff. there goes my holidays.

went shopping with my younger sis. bought her lots of stuff and food. i love her so so much

i think i look cuter than my sis here(:

florence say i look kiddy here. kiddy=cute mah.hahaha.

(:

i believe

2008-10-27T01:50:00.000-07:00

i'm tired and i feel like crying...

the past few days have been a turmoil for me. i realised i'm not as strong as wad others perceived me as and i'm sorry.

thanks alot to those who have helped me through this time and lending a listening ear to me(: kehua, cailing, vincent, daryl, des, rach, riane, cheraine, ym, jy etc. many thanks.

it's too late to apologise. the damage has already been done and there's no turning back now. i'm still pissed.

give me strength
it is only now then i realised you're my inner strength and my will to live on.
thank you

2008-10-25T19:55:00.000-07:00

fucking bitch you deserve it.

maybe if you were with me, i would have felt much better.

2008-10-16T22:55:00.000-07:00

stayed till 8pm in sch. total of 9 hours. and i'm dead tired. wr is really driving ppl nuts lah. the deadline shld not even have been extended to tmr in the first place. deprive us of our freedom and sleep): wanted to actually camp in sch to chiong out our wr, budden i'm scared of the lechers in the sch preying on me this pretty girl so i gave up the thought. haha. but really hope our wr can make it. i think it's super good lah. but too bad the teachers think otherwise. i dun wanna go sch tmr!! but still have to sign the cover page. damn it.

ogl interview today was a complete failure. there are like three people there who know one another and they practically steal the limelight from me can. idiotic. doubt i can get in since i'm super unenthu during the second part. now must depend on looks to get in. but think i wont get in if it's based on looks since they may get scared that others feel inferior because of my good looks so dats why i've got a super high chance of being kicked out. amelin has such a miserable life):

soonsiang was saying that my name sounds like ahh mei li. so nice of him rite. then ppl who approach me will be like "ahh, mei li". haha. he's like the only one that will play along with me while the others are like violently opposing me. so mean can. how can they hurt such a pretty girl with those harsh words? bad ppl.

i'm free tmr after 5pm. and i'm looking forward to it. wanna watch connected and shop plus sing k(((:

2008-10-14T23:49:00.000-07:00

went shopping today(((: happy(:
i realised shopping with someone who lives so far away from me can be really troublesome. i wanna go tm which is nearer to my place but she dun want to dat kind of thing. haha. but i had fun!!

ahh. i was really upset yesterday because of one particular thing. dampen my mood for a few hours. really shld have answered the call): but i'm now still as cheerful as ever(:

pw making me so mad. the pictures seem to get deleted off every now and then. it's been the third time dat i recopied and paste the pictures. super irritating can. angry!!

i wanna cut my fringe. fast and quick.

keeping quiet does help sometimes.

2008-10-12T22:39:00.000-07:00

i dislike animals especially cats.
i dislike ppl interfering with my life.
i dislike emo ppl.
i dislike ppl who get upset over results,relationships etc.
i dislike weaklings.
i dislike ppl who act pitiful.
i dislike ppl who are attention seekers.
i dislike ppl who are super despos.
i dislike unhumourous ppl.

i like ppl who are as crazy as me.
i like ppl who are as hyper as me.
i like ppl who are as annoying as me.
i like ppl who talk as much as me.
i like ppl who are as noisy as me.
i like ppl who are as humourous as me.
i like ppl who are as pretty as me(((:
i like sensitive ppl.
i like ppl who take initiative.

i dun like guessing.
i dun like having to read other people's thoughts.
i dun like doing piano homework.
i dun like remembering things.
i dun like studying))):

i like music.
i like playing the piano.
i like gossiping.
i like money(((:
i like to party and have fun.

pw becoming so much fun.especially when you have such fun pw mates.
hebei-the cute one.
shila-the pretty one.
amelin-the pretty and cute one.
max-the serious one.
jorven-the "handsome one".
but i seriously one pw to end.fast and quick.

j1 bash coming up.thought of wad to wear alr but it will be difficult to get wad i want.and many of my friends are not planning to go))):

2008-10-01T17:45:00.000-07:00

i pon sch on tues. woke up at 10am and decided to go out with my girlfriends. painted skin was so damn good can. super duper nice movie. and qi yuwu was hot(:

monday was fun too(: slept till 3pm so vincent,des,darren and ym came to my house and watched videos till we finally left at 7 for dinner.didnt manage to shop since the guys wanted to play pool and ym and i spent the hours watching them play since we totally suck at pool.haha.but was fun though.love them loads(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST SIS
celebrated with her only today when her birthday was actually on 29 sept.
love her hell loads(((((:

2008-09-27T18:00:00.000-07:00

SCREWD

PROMOS ARE FINALLY OVER!!i'm sooooo happy.though physics,chem and math was a complete disaster.slept for 15 hours today.haha.i think i ought to be in the Guiness Book of World Records lah.

i wanna go shopping.there's so much stuff to buy.shades,clothes,shorts,shoes etc etc.i need money desperately.AND I WANNA GO FOR FARENHEIT'S CONCERT.its 168 dollars and daddy has kindly agreed to pay for me but i'm looking for ppl to come with me.anybody interested in escorting me to s'pore indoor stadium.haha.but sms me ok?earthlings.it will be even better if i can get up close to YAN YA LUN.he's omg so cute and good-looking lah.the ideal lover can.

i was listening to the radio yesterday night and i realised there's so much nice songs.but it's all chinese ones.got suan tian,nanana,xia yu tian,wo hui lai le, etc.i think nan quan ma ma has good songs.at least its not always abt romance which gets boring after a while.woots.i'm going to indulge myself with music and more music.love my life now.i'm free!and i dun wanna care a hoot abt pw.dat is till then.

2008-08-28T21:00:00.000-07:00

photos from long long ago(:

2008-08-07T07:34:00.000-07:00

was kinda bored so attempted some quizzes.tada.results out(:

Deep and mysterious, it often seems like no one truly gets you.Inside, you are very emotional and moody - though you don't let it show.People usually have a strong reaction to you... profound love or deep hate.But you can even get those who hate you to come around. There's something naturally harmonious about you.

What Color Green Are You?
this is so true lor.there are really ppl who loves and hates me alot.dats wad i think.ppl keep telling me to watch my tongue as me being too direct will tend to offend ppl.maybe dats why i have so many enemies lor.or at least quite a few to name bah:(

Your Birthdate: August 9

For you, love is a feeling that lingers for really long time - even after a relationship is totally over.In fact, you still make have strong feelings for the first person you fell in love with.You usually are reluctant to end relationships. And sometimes you're the last to know that things are ending!Number of True Loves You'll Have: 5
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 4.You are most compatible with people born on the 9th, 18th, and 27th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

Your Birthdate: August 2

You may watch someone from afar before you finally decide to make your move.It takes a long time for you to develop an attraction to someone.
Generally, you prefer to pick who you love.Anyone who tries to rush you is in for some heartache.Number of True Loves You'll Have: 3
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 4.You are most compatible with people born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, and 29th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

did two quizzes coz i was supposedly born on 2nd august budden due to the 1 week delay,i was born on 9th aug instead.haha.but the 2nd august one more true lor(:

anyways,went out with cailing,fiona,jieling and kehua today.had fun crapping with dem.miss them loads.and i juz realised that fiona's birthday falls one week after mine and kehua's two weeks before mine.i'm the da jie lor.feel so proud(:
tmr: 7.30 am at T3 plus mummy movie with other jc1s.so dumb can.make us wake up so early for this programmes.i rather sleep at home can.but im meeting cailing,faith,puaysuan tmr after piano.love them.SHOP.SHOP.SHOP.

2008-08-01T22:11:00.000-07:00

OMG. i'm starting to sound very MAN. ahh. I WANT BACK MY VOICE!!! many ppl have commented that i sound so man lor. my brother keeps saying that i have the deepest voice at home. so mean can. I WANT BACK MY SWEET SWEET VOICE!!!

DUNMAN'S SPEECH DAY =)
it's only half of the whole 4A. like samuel said "only those who matter" are in this photo. xD

i shld have stand straighter.

DUNMAN DUNMAN DUNMAN :)))

2008-07-20T17:20:00.000-07:00

cable ski on friday was so fun. haha. although at first i was terribly frightened of whether i could die in the event which was abit far-fetched. but i seriously thought i was going to die lah. especially when i saw how strong the force that pulled the board was. but nevertheless, i managed to like cross one stretch of the lagoon. BUT I COULDNT TURN AT ALL. feel so retarded can. i was like almost heading straight onto the shore coz i couldnt turn. but consolation: i was way better than jeremy. he only managed to travel like less than 1/4 of the distance.haha.i'm proud of myself. but there were super pro meridians at cable ski. boonkhin managed to like turn lah and continue turning for three rounds. not fair. dora and russell managed to cross till the end of the lagoon with the skis. aravind went one round with the skis, although dora kept noticing how wide his legs were opened. javin went dunno how many rounds with the wakeboard. it is like the most difficult out of the three equipments there lah. pro. see how nice amelin is, praising her schoolmates even though she fail terribly at cable ski.
went to eat after that at parkway. thanks to jeremy, aiyan and i didnt shop eventually =(((

i'm looking forward to 26th july. not for MTPS lah, but rather speech day. kehua, you should feel honoured lor, getting to sit in the same row as me. so many ppl want also dun have the chance lor. =) feel so guilty actually. can easily tell the drastic difference between my o level grades and mid year exam grades. ms wong was like telling me that i need not see parents coz i didnt have any Us but she say my results not good. then she sigh. i didnt know what to say but i know my situation.

i'm trying to keep my smile.
coz i know fully well where i stand.
and i'm trying to get used to the position.

2008-06-26T21:40:00.000-07:00

i finally managed to get through midyrs.although confirm will have cross marks all over once i receive back the papers.nvm.at least i tried my very best=)considering how ill i fell after chem and gp papers.nevertheless,thks ppl for all your words of encouragement.love you all.

sometimes,i cant get it.why must ppl study so hard and earn lots of money when they will eventually die later on.it is pointless even if one earns plenty of money,they will not even have that long life to spend all their money lah.so dumb.why cant money just fall from the sky with everyone getting equal money monthly.this is then equitable use of resources can.there will then be fewer suicidal cases.everyone will then be happy.isnt it better?

i'm going to enjoy myself.i wanna sleep,go kbox,go ice-skating,go shopping etc.trying to complete these within the super short three days.add on to the fact that we still have chem lecture tmr.two hours can.just to go thru corrections.why must the chem department be so hiong.chiong like hell lor.crazy sia.but i'm ponning tmr.coz i predict i will fall sick tmr=)amelin HATES going to school.

2008-06-23T20:53:00.000-07:00

i changed my blogskin.although it's like a very old blogskin but wad matters most is that it is super cute.

CHEM MCQS IS MUCH MORE DIFFICULT THAN PAPER 2.

omg.i almost literally fainted when attempting the mcqs for chem.the classroom was damn stuffy and i was like gasping for air.it did not help when i realised that i made mistake for my section c about the drawing of bonding in boron(III) oxide.it's supposed to be covalent bond but i drew ionic.wth.but my friends drew ionic too.so hopefully i will be right.

english comprehension was a killer.especially the use your own words part.wth.i copied most of the words directly can.use your own words,use your own words,might as well ask us to rewrite the passage using our own words.it certainly doesnt help when the guy next to you keep flipping the pages and nodding off when only ih had passed.plus its super cold.cant they spare a thought for those without jackets?unfeeling creatures.

just let me endure till thurs.i cant wait to go shopping with my darlings on sun.woots.still must buy dora's super belated birthday present on thurs.i rather give her money to buy for herself than me looking all over for the suitable present.i'm not mean but seriously who likes shopping for presents?especially when there's tight budget.unless the birthday girl is me of course.

and let me pass physics paper.let it be an easy paper considering how difficult the 2007 midyr paper was.plese lenient and let this poor,helpless girl pass.im seriously considering dropping physics to h1.mgh,1/2mv2.like who will care?

2008-06-19T00:04:00.000-07:00

i promise to blog regularly from now onwards.
i promise never to neglect my blog.
i promise that amelin will turn into a habitual blogger.

satisfied already?ppl.

2008-06-19T00:01:00.000-07:00

been super busy today.just finish sending requests for email interviews with those organisers.and im happy to say that the freedom writers have replied.yay.at least our efforts had paid off.and im talking to six ppl at this moment.omg.see how busy dear amelin can get.but busy for the wrong stuff.i shld be mugging at this time.i can imagine myself staring at the exam papers with a blank mind.oh no.hopefully this will not happen.so not.

today had been a wasted trip.was planning to have consultation with mdm yati.but in the end,she was not in.couldnt blame her.we reached there at 5.went to whitesands thereafter.was hoping to buy a pair of shoes,since mummy was around to pay for it,but didnt in the end.think the salesperson was kinda fed up when i kept saying,"ehh.bu hao kan de.where got nice?"haha.but it was really ugly lor.couldnt keep my mouth shut so juz blurted out the comments.daddy came and we had dinner at the foodcourt.mummy kept nagging at me for complaining that the food is hot.but it really is hot.hotplate leh.how can not be hot?she says i eat super slow and especially like cold foot.like so not can.i rather leave my food cold then scald my tongue.haha.

didnt manage to but my shoes.shld have bought it from far east lor.$14.90 only.so cheap!!regretting it lor.but i finally bought my bag.$35.haha.and leather material.so worth it.shopping makes amelin a happy girl=)

had been kinda unhappy these days।my friends mainly.their attitude sometimes put me off.i get really pissed off when they keep complaining etc.guess im rather short-tempered.mummy keeps saying that im very insensitive.most of my friends say that too॥maybe im really not aware of my surroundings happenings,and i dun really care how ppl feel,and i dun bother replying messages about friendship or kinship even though i'll be happy to receive them,but isnt that better?i have less stuff to worry about.i dun wanna end up getting brain damage.adults cant seem to stop worrying,and i really hope i dun end up as one of them.pray hard.lol.

2008-06-15T01:55:00.000-07:00

suddenly had the urge to blog.been quite unhappy with my life so far.wish things would change for the better.

i'm beginning to rethink about my decision to continue my studies in jc.jc life has been such a bore.it has been a rigid daily routine and i cant imagine myself having to suffer for one and a half years more.add on to the fact that i have a boring and mugger class.no offence to the ppl in 08s103.but lets face it,our class is practically dead.omg.how on earth am i going to survive?with such boring people in my life,life aint gonna get better.maybe i should drop to poly instead.life would be so much more relaxed and i would definitely be much more happier=)

midyrs is approaching.and im proud to say that i havent even completed half of my revision.im so dead.just hope that midyrs would not be counted in promos as what cailing had said.

on a happier note,i'm going out with my darlings tmr.whoo.so looking forward to our outing although we just went out on friday.im missing them so much.gonna get a new bag and new clothes.gonna spend as much as i can since it would be until the next holidays when i can spend again.until now,i can only say,all the best,amelin.